If you have been on the TTC (Trying To Conceive) road you know about the dreaded 2 week wait. If you haven’t I’ll elaborate. The 2ww is the two weeks after your ovulation before you get your period. There is an average of 14 days for most women, you have to wait these 14 days to tell if you are pregnant. If you have been doing infertility treatments the wait is even more excruciating. You know you are giving this your best shot. You know exactly when you have ovulated, you probably even took medications to boost your egg making powers. After you proceed with your treatment/procedure all you can do is rest and take it easy for the next two weeks. They drag by slower than any days you’ve ever encountered in your life. And just when you think you are about to go mad, ding! ding!…it’s time to pee on a stick. Over and over and over you live these days. Every single month. The ups (knowing you did everything in your power to boost your baby making abilities), the downs (the inevitable double — minus sign.) It’s enough for a lady to go mad, and drive her hubby there with her. I know. We know. We’ve been there. Month after month, year after year. The roller coaster you so desperately want to get off, but know your life will end if you get out of that cart. I know it’s a little dramatic, but when you’ve only wanted to be a mom for say….10 years, that is how it feels.
Right now we are in a two week wait. 14 days. A wait, I honestly never heard of until we started our adoption journey. The scariest words in my vocabulary right now are: “she can appeal.” When you are adopting through foster care, after the parental rights have been terminated, the biological family can “appeal” (reject the ruling of TPR) up to 14 days later. They can even take it to the Supreme Court and appeal a second time. This can drag the adoption process out for years. You literally don’t know from day to day if they will accept or reject the appeal. So here we are in our 2ww, again. Different, but the same. The future of our child is hanging there, and we are just waiting. Prayers are appreciated. And if you are in your own personal 2ww, I’ll be praying for you too.