I am not going to lie. There have been times on this journey through life, in my life where I have been very depressed. That kind of goes hand in hand with infertility. To this day I haven’t met a person who has struggled to conceive and hasn’t had very low moments. It’s painful. It puts a huge strain on your marriage. You have to turn towards each other, not against. The only way out of this dark pit called ‘infertility’ is to turn to God, to trust Him and his timing, and to turn to your husband. Don’t let this barrier come in between you. God gave you this man for richer or poor, in good times and bad. You aren’t alone in this. No matter how lonely you feel you have God and your husband. Always. Some days were worse than others. I’d say my second and third year in this battle was probably the hardest. There is nothing more beautiful than to read the scriptures and KNOW God cares for you. He loves you and he will help you through the hurt and pain. You might not get the answer you were expecting. You might realize you are supposed to adopt or foster. That is the most beautiful gift you can give a child. And that child is YOUR child. It might take 1, 3, 10 years to get pregnant, it might not ever happen, but who knows? You could get pregnant after you adopt, it happens every day. God’s timing is not ours. I know you don’t want to hear that. I didn’t either. It’s because we are such an impatient people. Just remember, giving birth is such a beautiful thing, BUT you don’t have to give birth to be a mother. Just get over that thought right now! And when you are balled up in the cold porcelain bathtub crying your eyes out until you feel you can’t cry anymore (been there), just remember these beautiful verses from Psalms that God has given us.